lindseyann_xo

What a load of bull

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 18:40:59 GMT

Wow, I haven't posted here in a while *brushes away cobwebs*
Soooo, HCT is coming up...and I haven't really listened to panic! since Brent left (I don't know, they just don't sound the same to me anymore) But I reallllllly wanna go see THS and MCS because well, ya know, they're awesome. So, I call my concert buddy and she says, "Oh, I don't think I wanna do the concert thing anymore. Moshpits are too harsh on my clothes and I hate being all sweaty." (?) so she said she'd go if we sit on the balcony. ummmm, how about NO. So now that she's become a debbie downer, I'm considering going alone. ugh, why am I so worried about this.

anyways...

+/- right now
+ Started Culinary School (yay!)
- Work tonight (+25 hours per week )
+ Finished all my homework early in the semester so I don't have to do any more until next fall
+ Overall feeling of satisfaction with my life
+ Started running again
+ even though my plate is REALLY full right now, suprisingly I'm handling it really well
- I've broken ties with a few of my childhood friends. I really need to repair them.
- I miss when music used to be a huge part of my life :(

....Oh, and ATONEMENT sucked ass! I've seen a string of really horrible movies (except for Juno and a couple others) and I really need to break that streak

Please take 2 minutes and read this. I am SO FUCKING PISSED.

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 21:32:43 GMT

http://www.godhatesfags.com aka Westboro Baptist Church. A FUCKING CHURCH.

This horrible website is praising God for the bridge collapse. They're saying that God is punishing us because we tolerate "Fags" and sin. "God hates fags and fag enablers! Ergo, God hates Minneapolis and Minnesota. Land of the sodomite damned"

These wreches are going to the funerals of the victims saying "We will picket the funerals of those whom the soverign God dropkicked from the bridge into Hell." YOU DON'T GO TO A FUNERAL TO PROTEST. YOU JUST DON'T. Keep your idiotic thoughts to yourself.

They seem to justify their way of thinking by saying that God loves the WORLD not the people in it. So, we are free to persecute and judge whomever we please because He does.

They thank God for AIDS, Katrina, Dead Soldiers...any tragedy that they can think of.

My neighbor and one of my dad's old co-workers died in this accident and I am absolutely flabbergasted that someone could think that this is a result of god's "hatred" for FAGS, GAYS, and SINNERS. I refuse to believe that they would be pawns in this sick and twisted theory.

I can't even think right now, My mind is reeling.

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 00:54:58 GMT

"Music can lift us out of depression or move us to tears --
it is a remedy, a tonic, orange juice for the ear.
But for many people, music is even more --
it can provide access, even when no medication can, to movement, to speech, to life.
For them music is not a luxury, but a necessity."

-Oliver Sacks

I'm on my way to the top of the world, And I've got a feeling I'll give it away.

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 05:29:53 GMT

I have to work at 7, and yet here I am...still sitting here. Work is going well. I may be promoted soon, so that's pretty cool, I guess. Hannah, Anna, and I are planning on going on a trip over the 4th of July weekend. Yeah, it's June and we have nothing planned. greaaaaaaat.
So, here is my thinking so far. We could:

Fly to New York (and visit a school while I'm over there)
Fly to Chicago (I gotz shit to do thurr. Like, visit a school and a few friends from JBT :P)
Drive to Chicago
Take a cruise in the Caribbean
Fly to Seattle
Fly to Seattle and take a ferry to Victoria

I have no clue what we should pick.Knowing the three of us, we won't plan anything and just wing it. (which may or may not be a very good thing)

Well, sleep is drawing near. I must go.

P.S. I need to go to more concerts. IthinkImgoinginsane

The Big 20

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 05:58:16 GMT

Jeez, I feel old. "Quarter-life crisis" is an understatement.
Well, my mom is taking me out shopping for a bit later today for presents and stuff, so that should take my mind off things for a while. Yeah, today is family day. Hopefully, everyone can stop bickering for at least 2 hours so that we can have a bit of fun.

Wednesday should be super sweet. Holly and Libby are taking me to Buca or somewhere to celebrate and then we're gonna go see the ATHF movie. Anyone see it? Was it any good? Nothing else in theaters looks worthwhile, so ATHF it is...I guess.

Okay, I need to get some sleep. I'm rather tired. Tomorrow should be interesting.

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:24:22 GMT

I've worked for 8 days in a row

IHATEMYMANAGERS. Jesus Christ, don't they know that I have an e-life to maintain?!

:|

ugh, I have to leave. Having a life is overrated.

I miss you guys<3

Don't stop this train, don't for a minute change the place you're in...

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 03:12:13 GMT

+/- OF THE DAY
+Talking to Disashi for a few minutes :D
+Chocolate Chip Pancakes this morning
+Cleaned my room
+Irene is awesome

-Missed the GCH show :(
-Had to work
-My best friend went back to St. Peter. I MISS YOU, HANNAH! :(
-No shows until Damien Rice and HCT

MUST.UPDATE.JOURNAL

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 07:31:28 GMT

Jesus Christ, I'm too tired to do anything lately.
I have enough energy for work and about 4 hours of misc. activity afterwards. That's it.

IF ANY OF YOU KNOW WHAT WILL GET ME OUT OF THIS FUCKING FUNK, LET ME KNOW.
IswearImrottingontheinside

*cough* Underoath on Sunday was wonderful, as usual. TBS and AFS were fine but a little bland, but I loved singing the crap out of "The Truth About Heaven". OH, AND ADAM, it's time to get some new moves, hun. It was cool the first time you swung the mic, now it's just old.
IWANTTOMEETFRED.

Anywayyyys, I need to sleep. LOL, I don't really NEED to sleep, I'm just really really exhausted after all the nothingness I did all day :|

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 08:34:40 GMT

BUY INFINITY ON HIGH

do it.

seriously...do it.

TODAY

I've never been good at writing down how I really feel...but today I need to vent.

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 08:43:53 GMT

I'm way too generous
Any time I feel shitty, I always shove my problems to the side like they don't matter and I focus on other people and their problems.
I let people walk all over me
It usually doesn't bother me

...until today...People have been selfish and taken many things that have brought me joy away from me. WHEN IS MY TURN TO BE SELFISH? When is it gonna be my turn to find happiness? I've had glimpses of happiness, but I feel that some Godly being says: "Lindsey, that's enough. It's time for you to be miserable again." whenever I get to the place where I can say: "You know, I'm actually doing okay"

NO
I'm not doing that again. I can't. It's way too draining

I'm sick of being so god damn emotional

Fuck you

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Okay, I just read what I wrote^^^ and I feel so ashamed. What the hell is wrong with me?

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 19:45:52 GMT

MY GUITAR IS OWNING MY ASS

:|

I will master this stupid instrument. I really didn't want to start out on acoustic, but that's the only option I have. *sigh* If I haven't improved by the end of next month, I'm gonna stop. I'm pretty sure I will improve, but it's hard. *whine*

This is what I really want:

The Gibson SG Goddess (in blue or purple) it's $1,200.
OMG GIMME!

well, let's see how good I get and maybe I can get it...maybe

and I saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies...and the lovers with no time for me...

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 12:07:40 GMT

GOLDEN

This song will haunt me to my very core...will eat away at mind while I dwell on it's beauty...and as my eyes fill with tears, I will wonder why......

You know exactly what to say. You understand what it's like. Thank you for the words...the words that fit...the words that work...the words that will get me through.

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 23:36:17 GMT

ahhhh, I'm taking a vacation...a vacation from my problems (What About Bob, FTW).

Yeah, for me, this month is devoted to work and relaxation. Work never ceases to keep me busy, which is great. However, It's getting harder and harder to relax. Something is always happening. Plans with friends on the fly/Random shizz my parents want me to do/work...all that stuff. I never get the chance to relax, and when I do, I spend it worrying about my next activity. blargh...anyways, no one wants to hear about that.

It's day four without coffee (I'm trying to get off it). fhdjskaf, I'm dying. Working at Starbucks is not helping. *sigh* I'd better get used to being addicted. It's better than drugs, right?

All 4 of the FOB leaks have been on repeat on my iTunes for the last few days. I'm going crazy without the new stuff. That album is going to blow us all away...don't you dare doubt me.

You know I'm right